wow guys, thanks. I'll go through some of the points on my question to figure everything out...
Didn't you just live the rock n' roll lifestyle?There's plenty of musicians combining music with what you call socializing.
Yeah, but they EARNT it...you know? They hit the success, then they reaped the benefits. I am scared of getting distracted from my core talent by all these 'fun times' that I'll just end up boozed up and bloated in a pub boring the $%&#ing ears off some kid telling him how I could have been a contender...
that's the crux of it.
Hey Willo, good to "see" you. Nothing wrong with liking the ladies but I guess you love the music to a point. In many ways thta is better than being totally obsessed because music can be a fickle beast. I can't answer your questions. All I'd say is try and enjoy life as much as you can.
Oh I LOVE music.
Way I see it, is an identity crisis of sorts...bear with me...I used to be ABSOLUTELY 'tortured musician' to a tee. Heartbroken and $%&#ing sad all the time. Sad and frustrated.
I figured some things out in my life and now I'm happy. I have a great time. I feel much more like the guy I was supposed to grow into. Like a MAN, not a kid....:)
But it is unfamiliar waters for me. Whereas I used to just cry about girls, nowadays I couldn't care less. I had two over last night, one after the other...that heartbroken unrequited love stuff doesn't make sense to me now.
I still believe in love FWIW, just not contemporary culture's definitions of it.
So anyway, all the music that used to 'make sense' to me nowadays I just look at it like, 'WTF is he singing about?' It doesn't connect so much now I don't have that sadness. Likewise, my chief inspiration for song writing went.
I feel like John Frusciante cleaned up and bland as opposed to when he was $%&#ed but made the best music ever. I can write great hooks and parts, but man, without that overriding pain in my soul I feel empty a little now it has gone.
I'm centred and happy but since i lost my sadness I feel like a lost something that was a big part of who I thought I was.
Does this make sense? Bit of a big topic, I know.
Basically, I was much like you in my late teens, early twenties. In terms of the "lifestyle", do as you like but try not to hurt anyone too much. This often results in having serious repercussions with young ladies boyfriends/fiances/husbands/fathers.
Yep. Always an eye-opening experience....the things people hide from you. Suffice to say, its like an underworld. All this crazy shite goes on I never even seen before.
no regrets of your actions I hope?
oh god, no.
